First Time With My Homes
I had a
layout and a plan for how I wanted by first blog entry to look and sound. It
was going to be lighthearted and funny. How can a blog about my life with no
paid job, a new internship, and my silly quirks not be funny? Writing my first
entry has been on my “To-Do List” for two weeks and I am just now getting into
the mood, or rather, feel like I should write my first post.
I am a
Volunteer Intern for the Center for Active Citizenship (CAC) at Queens
University of Charlotte…try telling that to everyone you meet! I am working
with social media and blogging for the CAC’s Summer In Service (S.I.S.)
program. I have opportunities to work at different non-profit organizations in
Charlotte and to help organize different programs for the S.I.S. internship. My
internship is unpaid, so I am living with a family in Charlotte and helping
them out as rent payment (they are extremely kind to allow me to live with
them). I have a babysitting gig lined up so I can make a little cash, but it
seems that I only get a babysitting gig once a month! Alas, I am enjoying my 20
minute commute to my internship and scrounging for gas money.
During
my internship, I get the opportunity to go on-site with the S.I.S. team when I do
not have office work to do. Last week, I
took part in the orientation for the S.I.S. interns (I was in charge of telling
the interns about our blog and running the PowerPoint presentation). I also got
to go to a Habitat for Humanity build with the interns and spent eight hours
making final touches on a house for a family that moves in at the end of the
month. I spent the entire day caulking and making jokes about that (if anyone
needs caulking done, I’m your girl!)
The
first two weeks of being an active intern, a less-than part-time babysitter,
and a daughter to my Charlotte family were filled with adventure. I learned how
to be gas-savvy, how to have self-control and put down the shoes I desperately
wanted at Marshalls (the cashier had already rung them up when I asked her to
take them off my bill), how to just sit and enjoy the evenings when I had
nothing to do except jump with the boys on the trampoline, and how to create a
new home in a place I never knew I would be. I am living with my “Charlotte
family,” a mom, dad, seven-year-old boy, and five-year- old boy.
I feel
loved and appreciated every time I walk into their house and am a part of their
family. I feel loved and appreciated every time I walk into my internship
office in a suite in the Student Life department at Queens. I feel loved and
appreciated every time I talk to my family at my first home in Troy. The first
couple of weeks at my internship taught me that I have many different homes. My
homes are not just where my family is or where I am at that moment. My homes
are where I know I am loved, where I love the people there, and where I long to
be at different moments in my life. I am lucky to feel loved and appreciated in
all of my homes, no matter where in the world I am.
As I
think about my different homes, I am also thinking about the tragedy that
struck my hometown of Troy last weekend. A longtime family-friend, a boy I
graduated high school with and did Destination Imagination with for many years,
a guy loved by all, went missing on the Ohio River. Cameron had a mischievous
smile and was always up for a good laugh. Cameron’s body was found yesterday.
My family in Troy is devastated; my parents, his parents, his siblings, our
classmates, our church family…the list goes on and on…we are all in shock and praying
that God wraps love around each of us. My grandmother reminded me that God’s
love is all-encompassing and that God will be with Cameron’s family and friends
and will give them the strength and love that they need. While Cameron’s death
was traumatic and unexpected, I know that he left a world full of love and
homes behind. Cameron was at his home on the Ohio River. He had a home in Troy
with his family. He had a home with all of his friends. He had a church home
who loved and cared for him. He had a home in Florida and in Cincinnati with
his grandparents. Cameron left an impact at every home he ever had and that
impact will stay with us forever.
Being
away from my Troy home is difficult at this point in time. Grieving and trying
to figure things out in a place where people do not know Cameron or do not know
his family is hard. I want to be with my Troy family. But, having the privilege
to be with my Charlotte and Queens’ family is more than most people in this
world have. My internship and first two weeks of living off-campus and in
Charlotte taught me about the importance of my homes and about how it is
important for me to experience grieving and struggles in different places
because life is about how I react to situations and how I take my grief and
turn it into something different (such as taking out my sadness on a caulk gun
and caulking every inch of a Habitat house for someone in need).
I
wanted my first blog entry to be lighthearted and funny. I wanted my
personality to shine through the computer screen. But, this week called for
something different. And I think that is what I have shared with you today.
Please pray for Cameron’s family and friends.
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